whyi write sad poems

People have asked why I write sad poetry
I reply I don't write poetry when I'm happy
But I think I actually write to set myself free

My poems are either so vague or so literal
They contain allusions no one ever understands
But believe me, all my themes are ever so cruel

I don't think I've ever happy poetry for fun
But I don't ever writing poetry out of enjoyment
I write poetry because I don't own a gun

These rhymes articulate the anguish trapped inside me
Feelings that no one in the world, not even you
Or me, or anyone else in this universe can see

But I assure you, I will console myself one day
When I decide to give this hobby away

But I'm afraid that day will never come
I feel this sadness sticking like gum

I don't know why this is so
Maybe I saw too many a black crow

I think I'm being very pessimistic
But I'm never opportunistic

I don't know why
Should I even try
Now I want to cry
But even my tears have run dry.